i just don't want to disappoint anybody

just got the news that
I'm selected to join another physics competition..

well, I actually don't mind,
but...

remembering that I have 2 test on Monday, when the competition will be held,
and the last time *and the first time* I join physics competition,
I just don't want to join it..

I don't want to disappoint anybody,actually..
who do I mean anybody??
first, it's my teacher..
last time, I joined that competition and couldn't solve any question because of so many reasons.. well, honestly, I felt I was so stupid.. x_x
and now, another competition??
whew, can't imagine what it'll be..

second, my parents especially my mom..
she knew I joined that competition that day,
and I came home then said to her, "I couldn't do even one number, while my friends said it was so easy. easier than the exercises"
She said that it's fine. Just make it as an experience..
yeah, I know this is what she's going to say...
but, I can't just make every time as experience..

and the last person, is myself..
i can't face the fact that I failed and I've missed some classes..
I just don't want to face that fact for the second time...

I don't really know what I'm talking about.
I just write down what's in my mind now..
i hope nobody's hurt when reading this... :)

"you're smart"....

A lot of my friends said,
"you're smart!!"
"So lucky to be you..."

what's the benefit of being me??
well, I admit, my score at school is good..
but, Have you ever seen me win a competition which don't have relation with subjects??

I'm just good at subjects..
I don't know what talent that I have..

some of them want to be like me,
have a good score at school and lalala...

hey, don't you think that you guys are more talented than me??
the fact is that, I envy you guys..
you maybe not good at school, but you have skills...
And you can use it..
But I think, not me..
I don't know what talent is mine..

I play piano, but just play.. *you know what i mean*
I draw, but just draw, no art..
I sing, but i just like it, I don't think my voice is special.
*sigh*

a lot of people said
"you're smart"
but nobody's ever said
"you're special"

my feeling

Okay, I don't really know about what exactly I wanted to say..
But I just want to write on my blog..

Here's my feeling recently..
I kinda have a crush on someone...
but I'm quite sure that he don't know me..
well, he might recognize me,
but I don't think he want to know me better,
well, Who am I?
I'm just a eleven grader, a girl who isn't famous in school,
and you can say a School freak..
or, a Bookworm..

well, I admit it..
I like reading, I want to be a nicer girl at school,
not the one who try to be famous at school...

I don't know what to do with my feeling actually..
my first choice, wait until it's my time,
but with his personality,
I don't think it'll work if I didn't do any action..

my 2nd choice, GIVE UP..
and I actually really don't want to do that..
but, if it's the only choice, then I'll do it..
if it's for my own sake, or maybe for his sake, I'll do it..

what's the exact thing I must do??

Tug of war

yesterday, my school arranged 2 competition for celebrating the independence day...
yes, today is the independence day..

I join the Tug of war competition..
actually, I didn't plan to join it coz seems that I'm not chosen.. :p
but then, no one is willing to play, so I just join to have some fun.. :)
in fact, I really had a lot of fun..

1. coz I won... well, my team won...
2. I saw him playing for 8 times.. well, actually he's quite pitiful.. he needed to play 8 times to win,, but I just played 6 times..
   

well, actually, I didn't plan to watch his match, cause I've just done doing mine, and I wanted some cool air.. so I went inside my class.. then, I heard the host said, "This is grade 12 Social 1 VS...."
weew.. It's his class.. Maybe I should watch.. and I saw him standing next to the... well, let's say "rope".. haha, don't know what its name actually.. :D

then his class won the first competition..
after that, I played again for the semifinal, and so did he..
I won, and so did he.. but I just play 2 times, for semifinal, and he needed to play 3 times..
and so was the final.. I played 2 times, but he played 3 times.. :p

well,, you've done well, boy!! you look cute, in fact..


the last one I was really happy is because Rheyhan was there too...
finally, he went to my school... Lol..

Which One Do You Choose??

"Which one do u choose??"
Science or Art??

when u're at grade 10 in National School or other schools (except International School),
you'll be asked this question..

well, it's quite hard to answered that, for me..

of course, because of some reasons..

1.I can't memorize..
I seldom get 100 in memorizing lessons, like Geo,Sociology,History, etc.

2. How would be my Biology if I choose Science??
I've told you, I'm bad at memorizing.. although actually, you can't memorize when you're learning Biology.. It'll make u easier to forget...

3. I'm not planning to take a class which has relation to science later at college or university
well, I don't have any interest at those kind of classes..

4. Can't I choose Language??
Big NO!!! there's no Language choice in my school.. T,T

Why we can't choose our favorite lesson??
Like at Harry Potter..
take the lesson which with the highest score..
It'll make school more fun and easier..

what a very nice dream.. haha..

Graduation 2010

it's not my graduation..
it's my seniors' graduation..

bisa dibilang keren..
why??
karena kita pake pindah haluan segala..
gara2 hujan tuh...
sdgkan kita, para penari, perlu tahu keadaan panggung..

Abis pindah haluan, acara lsg mulai..
Nda mungkin sekali kalo mau latihan..
maka dari itu, kita hanya berpasrah..

tapi,
Thanks God...
kita berhasil ngelakuin itu semua.. :)
bangga bgt dehh..

Katanya keren, bgs, dll..

Mereka ga tahu nasib kita siih..
Ada yg mau jatuh ke blkg,
ada yg mau kesrimpet baju,
ada yg salah jalan,
wew... -_-
tpi memuaskan kok.. :)


GOOD JOB, GUYS.....

it's weird

okay..
I must present a presentation in front of class today..
but something weird..
I Can't find the slides that I had made it the day before..
I thought, maybe I saved it in my laptop, not in my USB..
I can make a new one anyway...

and finally,
I make a new slides...

But...
when I checked at home,
it's not in my laptop..
It's in my USB..
then, how come I can't find it in the afternoon??
so weird...
huff....

feel guilty

Ok. I really feel guilty..
It's been 2 days from Sunday..
And I dunno how to fix it...
*hope I could fix it*

He's the one who ever fell in love with her..
And now, I'd ruined everything...
What a nice girl I am???

Now my world isn't the same anymore..
He feels bad, n so do I..
I don't know what her exact feeling,,
but he said that she's happy now..
I don't think so..
cause she's not that kind of girl..
She still have feeling for shouting out loud..
Maybe she's not like me, but in some ways, she's better than me...
Much more better than me.....
Hope he know that...

I really don't know what I must to do...
He's better with her..
but not her...
*sigh*

my memories...

Last day of semester 1 holiday..

And I really bored..

Have nothing to do..

Then got an idea for editing my photo...

Well, thanks God I got photoscape in my grandma’s laptop..

So, I edited some of my pictures with my friends..

It’s one of my memories..

When I edit it, I suddenly feel miss them, especially her..

*can u guess???*

I really can’t cherish the time..

When I was there, I didn’t look for her..

And now, I regret it..

Really-really regret..

When will I be there again??

It’s gonna be take a long waiting...

Not only bored now.. I start to feel scared..

It’s only 2 days more till her leaving..

Well, it’s the 2nd time,

But I still scared..

*I just like a loser*

Well, I have to be braver...

Recently...

Hri ini terima rapor..
such an unimaginable result..
but, I don't really feel satisfied..
*yeah.. human never feel satisfied*
Why I just can't beat her anymore??
Although I know..
I already win in other subject,
but... *sigh* I.D.K n I.D.C

well, I'm happy to hear a happy news..

It's such a really happy news for me..
*thx to her 1st*
Last Sunday,
when I was at the bookstore with my fam,
my friend told me that she saw a news bout Kevin Jonas's Marriage..
In fact, he's engaged last June or may, I forgot..
And I already know that..
But He's married??
Oh God!!
It's really surprising...
Even Aaron Yan still single (and he's older than Kevin)
haha..Lol...
Anyway,,

CONGRATULATIONS!!! PAUL KEVIN JONAS JR AND DANIELLE DELEASA.....
MAY GOD BLESS BOTH OF YOU......

new moon

I didn't find other word to describe that movie..
except,
AWESOME!!!

it reminding me to my past..
The time when me and her..
in the same class..
have fun together..

and actually...
I miss that moment....

I know sometimes I don't like her..
but I think it's normal..
coz, nobody's perfect..

and still, we're friends anyway..
and...
she's the one I need for some things..
still wanting those moments anyway..
besides I'm happy and interesting,,
She's there.. with me...

Sis, I miss those moments like you...

long time no see...

long time no see, guyz..
n now,
dunno what to say...

Senior High, huh...
too many homework, test, n school stuff...
so busy...

miss my sis..
miss my best friend..
miss 'him'...

OMG..
my feeling is so complicated...

I should focus on school..
but i want to enjoy my life..
what should I do????

Miss Junior High

I really miss junior high…

Di mana tugas ga sebanyak skrg...

Ulangan tidak saling tumpuk…

Pelajaran lebih sedikit…

Mungkin memang bener, masa terindah adalah masa SMA..

Dan ini hanyalah sebuah awal..

Dan aku harus melewatinya…

Tapi,

Rugi banget rasanya dpt kelas ini…

Bukan mslh tmn2nya…

Tp mslh jadwalnya…

Sebetulnya ga rugi, tp ya,,, entahlah…

Ga tau gmn gambarinnya…

Ul Kn pertama bersama dengan Biologi yg juga pertama…

Ul Ing pertama dan akhirnya perbaikan…

Ul Agama pertama…

Ul Mandarin pertama…

Ul apa lg deh…

Ul pertama not d real prob...

Malesnya,,,

Temen2 minta bocoran…

Ga ngasi gimana, ngasi jg gimana…

Kalo minta bocoran soal n stop di situ lebih baik…

Tp, bgmn dgn bocoran beserta jwaban???

Thx God aq orangnya ga pinter hapalin jawaban..

Thx God ingatanQ cukup pendek untuk mengingat jawaban Ul dan UUS…

Huh….

But…

I will still believe..

Aku akan dapet imbalannya juga…

Japanese....

What I like from Senior High Co-curricular is there's Japanese class...

at least, I can choose that one..

hahaha...

So, today is the first meeting..

and we study some of the greetings.

then I really curious...

with myself..

Which method did I use to learn Mandarin,

and I can be like today???

wew...

Still can't believe that...

I hope I can learn Japanese like I learn Mandarin....^^

TUGAZZZZZZZZ Melulu.........

jengkel bgt....

SMA bener2 full of tugas deh..

entah kapan bisa istirahat..

masuk aja ngga mudeng pelajarannya...

apalagi kalau bolos...

pdhal pengen bgt bolos unt nganter cici ke Sg..

tp bener2 ngga kebayang deh..

apa yg akan terjadi kalo aq bolos...

adaptasi di SMA ngga segampang adaptasi di SMP..

entah nilai ulangan aku bakal gmn..

HELOOO, SENIOR HIGH!!!

HELOOO, SENIOR HIGH!!!

masi jengkel dgn OSKAR yg suru bawa brg2 aneh2..

Tp seneng aja rasanya jd Senior High Student...

besok udah mulai pelajaran..

temen2 blm deket semua...

dtg dari berbagai tempat..

blm sempet ngobrol banyak...

agak canggung...

Miss Junior High jg sie..

hahaha...


Holiday is Over...

get back 2 Study!!!!!

Congratulation 4 all Karangturi 9 Graders...

Congratulation, guys….

Try to be better and the best…

To : Filbert..

Congrats, ya!!! Traktirannya ta tunggu…

Kelas qta nek mw traktir2an bs2 1 bln nda bar..

Khan 1 org isa traktir ampe 5 kali.. hehehe..

Idenya Tania nie…

To : Banawi…

Congrats!!!

Bener2 nda nyangka…

Hehe…

Sebenernya, eman2 juga nilai2 ku tu…

UAN harusnya bisa dpt 100 tapi ya biasa lah nda teliti..

Kalo BI udah pasrah.. Bisanya emg segitu.. hehe.. ^^

But I’m proud with my result..

This is me..

And thanks to all of the teachers..

Thank you very much…

And,

Maaf atas perbuatan kami yg tidak berkenan atau kesalahan kami…

CONGRATULATIONS, GUYS…

Surabaya-Bali Overland Tour

Abis pulang dari Bali nie...
Happy... Cape...
Macem-macem deh rasanya...

Di Surabaya, ketemu sama sodara yg sdh lama bgt ngga ketemu..
Rasanya seneng banget.. Cuman waktu yang bersama masi aja kurang.. hahaha...
Tapi udah cukup puas kok..
Hotelnya di Sby, sebenernya cukup enak, cmn airnya yang masalah
masa mau mandi harus nunggu kiriman air dari surga???
alias, airnya keluarnya kecil buanget....
Kalo untuk kamarnya sie, lumayan...

Di Bali, cape bgt deh... Sampe2 tiap malem tidurnya nyenyak..
Bahkan hari pertama malah telat.. Hari terakhir jg telat juga sie..
Cuman lebih mending daripada yg hari pertama...
hahaha...

Belum sempet jalan2 di Discovery..
Cuman beli Breadtalk ama jalan2 bentar..
itu aja ngga sempet liat2 ke toko2..

Beli barang harganya juga kemahalan..
Jadi kapok beli barang di Sukowati..

Hotel di Bali kamarnya agak kecil sie..
but, lumayan juga... bersih, nyaman..
Sayang, TVnya TV lokal doank..
Kalo di Sby ada CCTV, DisneyChannel, dll..
Jadi agak lumayan..
Cmn Hotel Sby agak ngeri aja..
Kaya hutan gitu..
hahahaha....

9cee..... I'll miss you!!!!!

so much memory in 9c...
1. kelas yg tenang kaya kuburan
2. kelas yg isinya pinter2..
3. kelas di mana pernah dimarahi gara2 makan permen
4. kelas yg dipandang tinggi ama guru2 dan beberapa murid lain
5. kelas yg LIMITED OF BOY
6. kelas yg pny ban zhang yg narsis...
dll...

Di kelas ini aku pernah ngerasain bangga dan kecewa..
awalnya jengkel juga sama kelas yg sepi kaya kuburan itu..
Temen2 jg pada grup2an...
Tapi ngga kerasa 1 thn terjalani jg..
Skrg udah mau pisah malah ngga tega...

Di kelas inilah tempat di mana aku merasa pny tekanan..
Gara2 nilai yg jelek...

Tapi di kelas ini jg tempat di mana aku merasa bangga karena bisa bersaing dgn tmn2 yg bisa dikatakan sejenis...

Baru aja pisah beberapa jam dgn temen2 9c tp skrg rasanya udah kangen lg...
Ngga disangka tmn2 di kelas unggulan, kdg urakan jg..hehe
ribut, ngga ngerjain PR, ngga ngurusin guru, makan di kelas, ampe nyontek mgkn... Hahaha...
tp itulah murid...

abis ngikutin ujian segitu bnyk, rasanya jd semakin dkt aja ama tmn2 di 9c...
Apalagi ntar abis ke Bali.. Ngga bisa bayangin...

Sayang, beberapa tmn harus pindah...
I'll miss you, guyz...


@ Rio : rio, sorry ya kadang aq emosian... Apalagi wkt musikalisasi puisi itu.. Tapi seandainya ngga ada kamu, aq ngga tw tugas kali itu bakal jadi kaya apa...

@ Feli : 贤， 好不容易找到你。现在你又要去另外个城市。真遗憾。但是

我还是很高兴可以认识你这个朋友。希望我们可以当永远的好朋友...

@ ella : Mic, ngga tw mau ngomong apa.. Bis ngga deket sie.. Tapi ya aq minta maaf aja kalo2 ada kesalahan to apa aja yg buat kamu ngga suka ama aq..


@ 9c...
Xry ya buat kesalahan2 yg pernah aq buat!!!
I'll miss you...

watching him

First, I wanna say...
Edward sdh mempengaruhiku dgn hal2 yg seharusnya tdk kulakukan...

Pertama : Edward bwt aq memikirkan yg ngga2.. maksudnya imaginasiku jd lbh parah drpd biasanya...

Kedua : aq seneng ngliatin org yg lg tdr jg ternyata..

hehe...

dia keliatan cute sie...
wkwkwk...
Tp aku harap kesenangan ini hanya sesaat...
hehehe...
coz dia bkn milikku....