little things annoyed me

recently, I realized that I haven’t written any story and diary for about a month and more.. and I started to ask myself, “you like writing, don’t you? then why don’t you write any? it’s ok you don’t have any idea for a good story.. but diary? you can’t say you don’t have idea for that…” but I still didn’t write any.. == and I started to doubt I like writing is a temporary things..

the other thing that annoyed me is that when I wanted to draw, I mean sketch something when I bored, there’s always no idea about what I want to sketch.. and I hate it.. grrrrr…

and we can conclude that, from last year till now, I’ve written really a few of story and diary… ==

i wish idea will come faster……..

when you're lonely, who will you think of...

this is the title of a song, actually.. A chinese song..
當你孤單你會想起誰 (dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shei)
A song sang by Nicholas Teo 張棟樑

this isn't a new song, and we can categorized it as an old song.
But I don't know why, this afternoon, in dancing class, I really wanted to listen to this song..
I took my iPod, and listen to this.. but then, the school bell rang.. -.-''' I turned it off, and went to eat my lunch..
After school, in school bus, I listen to this song.. Seems that it's been a long time I didn't listen to this song...

當你孤單你會想起誰 你想不想找個人來陪
when you're lonely, who will you think of... Don't you want to look for a person for accompanying you

hey, boy, when you're lonely, who will you think of?? I wish it's me.. cause sometimes, I think of you when I'm lonely.. :)

只看見你 just can see you..

this is what i watched just now... a song sang by Aaron yan, my fave singer and actor...

He released a new album called “the next me" on March 25...

I've been listening to this song since last weekend, and I still love it..

The lyrics is great, it has a pattern which very interesting *in my opinion* and the meaning is very touching..

I'd like to have someone special sing this song for me... and I wish it's him.. lol.. :p

random

this entry is going to be super random.. don't be shocked, 'kay??

I'm going to join a study tour to Taiwan during the summer holiday..from mid June to mid July..Yesterday was the first meeting.. All of the participator must come..The teacher told us some information.. We must come again nxt week to join the classes.. there are 2 classes, or maybe 3, chinese, singing, and dancing.. i wish we don't need to sing old songs... and I wish the chinese class won't be boring... well, a bit is fine.. but don't be too boring.. haha.. I can't wait for this Taiwan trip..

I just watched Gnomeo and Juliet today..It's definitely funny.. I laughed all the time.. haha.. the music was arranged by Elton John... so good.. :) two thumbs up...

I'm watching Prince and Princess 2 recently.. A taiwanese drama series.. I'm kinda wishing to be a princess 2 too.. lol..

And I'm missing someone.. well, might be not someone only.. but some ones... don't know how to find them...

last 5 days

11.03.2011 I went to Singapore to visit my sister and spend 5 days there.. It's the first time I went to Singapore since my sister studies there..

First day, I felt like a fool.. lol.. I walked beside my sister who lives there for about almost 2 years.. I can say that she already knew anything there, and I don't know anything.. I walked quite fast that day, but I don't know which direction to go.. haha..

The weekend, I spent with my family go shopping.. we never don't shop there.. haha.. there's always things I'd like to buy... almost every time, I bought CD, books, clothes... what i love from Sgp is Mc.D's breakfast.. and my favorite is the hash brown!!! ooh, I want that more!!! *yummy*

On Monday, I went to my sister's school and met her friends.. in the afternoon, I went to marina barrage with my junior high friend.. and we also went to the cinema watched Red Riding Hood.. what a nice movie.. very nice.. I almost cried.. haha.. *I admit, I'm easily touched by film or music*

Tuesday, went to hospital for medical check-up, not me.. it's my dad, and after that, still the same as usual, shopping *again*...

Wednesday, packing and went back home.. I'd like to say home sweet home, but..... Well, I love home but not the country...

today, I did my routine then feel like last 5 days are dream.. and i wish i'll never wake up from that dream...

i just don't want to disappoint anybody

just got the news that
I'm selected to join another physics competition..

well, I actually don't mind,
but...

remembering that I have 2 test on Monday, when the competition will be held,
and the last time *and the first time* I join physics competition,
I just don't want to join it..

I don't want to disappoint anybody,actually..
who do I mean anybody??
first, it's my teacher..
last time, I joined that competition and couldn't solve any question because of so many reasons.. well, honestly, I felt I was so stupid.. x_x
and now, another competition??
whew, can't imagine what it'll be..

second, my parents especially my mom..
she knew I joined that competition that day,
and I came home then said to her, "I couldn't do even one number, while my friends said it was so easy. easier than the exercises"
She said that it's fine. Just make it as an experience..
yeah, I know this is what she's going to say...
but, I can't just make every time as experience..

and the last person, is myself..
i can't face the fact that I failed and I've missed some classes..
I just don't want to face that fact for the second time...

I don't really know what I'm talking about.
I just write down what's in my mind now..
i hope nobody's hurt when reading this... :)

family

a lot of ppl said that FAMILY stands for "Father And Mother I Love You"
then what about brother and sister? They still part of a family, right??

that's not what I'm gonna talk about actually

I'd like to say *well, kinda complaining* about my and my friend's family condition..

Some of my friends' parents didn't allow them to have a relationship now.. I mean, when we're in High School. They think that we're not adult enough, while we think it's kinda late, because a lot of our friends alr had their relationship since... um... Junior High, or even maybe Elementary school..

well, but in my opinion, they have a very nice family.. They usually go somewhere, and it's usually abroad (where I wanted to have my holiday with my family), on holiday...

and they (my friends) aren't really happy with that condition..
They prefer having a relationship to having a holiday with family..
well, human never feel satisfied, right?? and they regret it when they lost it..

If can't have relationship is the only way to have a family vacation, then I prefer not to have a relationship right now....

I always wanna be your little girl

last night,
when I said good night to my mom and dad,
my dad said,
"why don't you grow up?"
and I actually didn't get what my dad said..
then he continued,
"why are you still like a little girl?"
I didn't know what to answer,
so I just smiled..

After I went out from their bedroom,
I told myself,
Because I always wanna be your little girl, dad...

I actually already planned something for my 17th b'day
but, I don't think that I'm gonna tell this to anyone,
except, they're reading my blog.. :)

everyone says 17.. you're now not a little girl/boy anymore..
you've grown up..
yes, we've grown up..
But here, in my heart, I always wanna be your little girl, mom, dad..
will you do this for me???

"you're smart"....

A lot of my friends said,
"you're smart!!"
"So lucky to be you..."

what's the benefit of being me??
well, I admit, my score at school is good..
but, Have you ever seen me win a competition which don't have relation with subjects??

I'm just good at subjects..
I don't know what talent that I have..

some of them want to be like me,
have a good score at school and lalala...

hey, don't you think that you guys are more talented than me??
the fact is that, I envy you guys..
you maybe not good at school, but you have skills...
And you can use it..
But I think, not me..
I don't know what talent is mine..

I play piano, but just play.. *you know what i mean*
I draw, but just draw, no art..
I sing, but i just like it, I don't think my voice is special.
*sigh*

a lot of people said
"you're smart"
but nobody's ever said
"you're special"

sudden celebrity

why I chose this title? coz I am now..
haha..
you don't believe?? no problem..
I'll tell why I chose this title..

august 21, 2010..
it was the first day i became a sudden celebrity..
well, on Wednesday august 18, if I'm not mistaken,
my brother invited me to his b'day party..
well, Okay. I don't have any plan for saturday, so it's fine

then, Thursday august 19, 2010...
I got another b'day party invitation for Saturday..
WHAT???? Saturday??? the same day??
then I saw the time.. and the same time??
the place, well, ofc, not the same place..
how can I be at the different place on the same time??
NO WAY!!!!
then I asked my mom, 'what should I do?"
my mom said, 'it's up to me..'
wew -.-''

one is my brother now, and one was my brother..
*well, he's still my brother.. but we're not that close anymore*
ofc, I prefer my present brother than the other one..
but, I don't want to disappoint the other brother,
or let's say, I don't want to miss this opportunity...
so my last choice is that, come to both of them..

and I did.. I went to my brother first, then to my present brother..
but at last, I don't think I'm satisfied or I'm happy... :(

and I'm afraid, this thing is happening again..
today, 16 Oct, I had 2 b'day invitations *again*
1st is my classmate's.. she's a girl
2nd, is my.... well, you can say, my ex..
I'd like to come to both of them.. but.. *there's always 'but'...*

I don't think I belong to her b'day party..
but I belong to his b'day party..
I don't think I'm important to him,
but I'm important to her...*well, at least, she is quite important to me*

uurgh.. so confusing...
I really hope that's not gonna happen for the third time..

and let's see for next week plan..
okay, 21 oct, my little nephew gonna be a month, and there's gonna be a party *again*
then, last night, my dad gave me an another b'day invitation.. well, let's say my cousin's little girl is turning one... and there's a birthday party *again and again*
then, the next week, 28 Oct is my big nephew birthday..
and 1 Nov, it's my mom n my friend 's birthday.. oh my!!!

which one is better??

hey, guys.. I need help here.. :p

if you were at the bookstore,
and you saw books...
Book with which title will get ur attention, and u wanted to read, and buy it??

a. Dear boy,
b. Letters to my boy

cause it'll be the next project of mine.. :p

comment with ur answer, guys..
thanks.. :)

my feeling

Okay, I don't really know about what exactly I wanted to say..
But I just want to write on my blog..

Here's my feeling recently..
I kinda have a crush on someone...
but I'm quite sure that he don't know me..
well, he might recognize me,
but I don't think he want to know me better,
well, Who am I?
I'm just a eleven grader, a girl who isn't famous in school,
and you can say a School freak..
or, a Bookworm..

well, I admit it..
I like reading, I want to be a nicer girl at school,
not the one who try to be famous at school...

I don't know what to do with my feeling actually..
my first choice, wait until it's my time,
but with his personality,
I don't think it'll work if I didn't do any action..

my 2nd choice, GIVE UP..
and I actually really don't want to do that..
but, if it's the only choice, then I'll do it..
if it's for my own sake, or maybe for his sake, I'll do it..

what's the exact thing I must do??

Samantha = a good Listener

Samuel + anthos = Samantha..
Which means A good listener,
a Listener of God,
or God has heard..

A good listener..
Well, I admit, I like to listen to my friend's stories..
I like their story actually,
but sometimes I get bored cause some people always tell the same topic of their stories..
Such as "boys" for girls..

But it's seems that they rarely ask me 4 my story..
I don't know it's only my feeling or it's the truth..

Well, My story might not as interesting as theirs,
but I want to share is it wrong?
When I share some story,
they just listen and done, do nothing..
Never give response or advice..
Well, sometimes they give advice but what I really need actually is response..

Tug of war

yesterday, my school arranged 2 competition for celebrating the independence day...
yes, today is the independence day..

I join the Tug of war competition..
actually, I didn't plan to join it coz seems that I'm not chosen.. :p
but then, no one is willing to play, so I just join to have some fun.. :)
in fact, I really had a lot of fun..

1. coz I won... well, my team won...
2. I saw him playing for 8 times.. well, actually he's quite pitiful.. he needed to play 8 times to win,, but I just played 6 times..
   

well, actually, I didn't plan to watch his match, cause I've just done doing mine, and I wanted some cool air.. so I went inside my class.. then, I heard the host said, "This is grade 12 Social 1 VS...."
weew.. It's his class.. Maybe I should watch.. and I saw him standing next to the... well, let's say "rope".. haha, don't know what its name actually.. :D

then his class won the first competition..
after that, I played again for the semifinal, and so did he..
I won, and so did he.. but I just play 2 times, for semifinal, and he needed to play 3 times..
and so was the final.. I played 2 times, but he played 3 times.. :p

well,, you've done well, boy!! you look cute, in fact..


the last one I was really happy is because Rheyhan was there too...
finally, he went to my school... Lol..

Once again,,I'm not ready...

H**l, why the time can't stop?
sometimes we need it to move quicker,
but sometimes we need it to move slower or even stop..
Well, that's Human.. Never feel satisfied...

Why I'm not ready?
okay, here are some reasons...

1. I'm not in the class with my best girl..

2. I've spent the whole holiday (+the 2nd semester final exam) with my sis..
And now, she just left like that.. I'm alone again..
*that's why I wish I had a lil bro or sis*

3. I get more pressure this year..
Because of score, and bla bla bla..

4. I just want to be with her.. is that wrong??

well, i guess that's all..

satisfaction

i know, people never feel satisfied..
but sometimes, we do need to be satisfied for a while..

Paragon.. the newest mall in town..
it's quite far from home,
and I went there just for watching movie??

Hey, I spent a lot of time planning this..
who will pick me up, with whom, and blablabla

then I got there.. bought the tickets, watched the movie..
my first aim CHECKED..
I called my mom and told her the movie's done,
she said that she was picking clothes at the dry clean,
I thought I still have time to buy coffee, or at least snacks..

well, as i know, Indonesian worker are SLOW.. d*mn SLOW..
that's why we need to queue everywhere..
at the locket, at the bakery, and everywhere...

and that's why, I didn't buy anything at last
cause my mom was outside.. ****

i need refreshing, people..
it's not easy to get there,,
and i don't want to went there just for watching A movie..
at least let me walk around for a while!!!
*sigh*

what I want to say

I'm not sure enough about what i'm going to write actually...
so I'm not sure y'all know what or who i'm saying...

First, I would like to say "thank you" for one of my girl...
thanks for buying me "The Last Song" novel with the cover like I imagine...
*I'll pay ofc.. whenever we met after the holiday..*

Second, I would like to say "thank you" *again* to my new "brother"
thanks for accompanying me this holiday..
I hope we can be in the same class next year

Third, I would like to say "thank you" *ironically* to one of my friend..
you've made me such a fool.. really thank you...

Fourth, I can't even wait for 27 of June.. I'll be out of town.. YAY!!!

Fifth, I would like to say "Good luck" for my girl..
Good Luck on your way you've chosen.. :)

I guess that's all..

Happy holiday, Guys!!!!!

Which One Do You Choose??

"Which one do u choose??"
Science or Art??

when u're at grade 10 in National School or other schools (except International School),
you'll be asked this question..

well, it's quite hard to answered that, for me..

of course, because of some reasons..

1.I can't memorize..
I seldom get 100 in memorizing lessons, like Geo,Sociology,History, etc.

2. How would be my Biology if I choose Science??
I've told you, I'm bad at memorizing.. although actually, you can't memorize when you're learning Biology.. It'll make u easier to forget...

3. I'm not planning to take a class which has relation to science later at college or university
well, I don't have any interest at those kind of classes..

4. Can't I choose Language??
Big NO!!! there's no Language choice in my school.. T,T

Why we can't choose our favorite lesson??
Like at Harry Potter..
take the lesson which with the highest score..
It'll make school more fun and easier..

what a very nice dream.. haha..

hey, girl.. still remember all these??

remember all these, girl??


Totally Spies... Undercover....



Jonas Brothers...


your favorite show, Hannah Montana??



xiao xiao da ren wu?? Fahrenheit??



Lollipop?? Na li Pa?? :)


I hope you still remember those..

I miss you.. :)

miss them

well,
mm...
some people say that,
people will change after they have their L-O-V-E relationship..

and now,
I know it..
2 friends of mine, or maybe more
have been the examples...

and now,
I kind of miss them..