I always wanna be your little girl

last night,
when I said good night to my mom and dad,
my dad said,
"why don't you grow up?"
and I actually didn't get what my dad said..
then he continued,
"why are you still like a little girl?"
I didn't know what to answer,
so I just smiled..

After I went out from their bedroom,
I told myself,
Because I always wanna be your little girl, dad...

I actually already planned something for my 17th b'day
but, I don't think that I'm gonna tell this to anyone,
except, they're reading my blog.. :)

everyone says 17.. you're now not a little girl/boy anymore..
you've grown up..
yes, we've grown up..
But here, in my heart, I always wanna be your little girl, mom, dad..
will you do this for me???

Aaron said....

well, you might ask, who the hell is Aaron??
He's not my boy *But I wish he was.. lol..*
He's not my brother *and again, I wish he were... :p*
He's the most influenced person in my life...

He got a cute face,
but,
He's been suffering a lot,
I wish I could replace him....

I'm not gonna talk about Aaron this time..
But I'm gonna talk bout what he said..

He said that, Life without friends is like life without the sunshine..
then,
what about life without love??
what I mean love here is love between boyfriend and girlfriend..

I know, friends are more important than a boy/girlfriend.
But, is it wrong wanting a boyfriend/girlfriend??
No, right?? :)

"you're smart"....

A lot of my friends said,
"you're smart!!"
"So lucky to be you..."

what's the benefit of being me??
well, I admit, my score at school is good..
but, Have you ever seen me win a competition which don't have relation with subjects??

I'm just good at subjects..
I don't know what talent that I have..

some of them want to be like me,
have a good score at school and lalala...

hey, don't you think that you guys are more talented than me??
the fact is that, I envy you guys..
you maybe not good at school, but you have skills...
And you can use it..
But I think, not me..
I don't know what talent is mine..

I play piano, but just play.. *you know what i mean*
I draw, but just draw, no art..
I sing, but i just like it, I don't think my voice is special.
*sigh*

a lot of people said
"you're smart"
but nobody's ever said
"you're special"

sudden celebrity

why I chose this title? coz I am now..
haha..
you don't believe?? no problem..
I'll tell why I chose this title..

august 21, 2010..
it was the first day i became a sudden celebrity..
well, on Wednesday august 18, if I'm not mistaken,
my brother invited me to his b'day party..
well, Okay. I don't have any plan for saturday, so it's fine

then, Thursday august 19, 2010...
I got another b'day party invitation for Saturday..
WHAT???? Saturday??? the same day??
then I saw the time.. and the same time??
the place, well, ofc, not the same place..
how can I be at the different place on the same time??
NO WAY!!!!
then I asked my mom, 'what should I do?"
my mom said, 'it's up to me..'
wew -.-''

one is my brother now, and one was my brother..
*well, he's still my brother.. but we're not that close anymore*
ofc, I prefer my present brother than the other one..
but, I don't want to disappoint the other brother,
or let's say, I don't want to miss this opportunity...
so my last choice is that, come to both of them..

and I did.. I went to my brother first, then to my present brother..
but at last, I don't think I'm satisfied or I'm happy... :(

and I'm afraid, this thing is happening again..
today, 16 Oct, I had 2 b'day invitations *again*
1st is my classmate's.. she's a girl
2nd, is my.... well, you can say, my ex..
I'd like to come to both of them.. but.. *there's always 'but'...*

I don't think I belong to her b'day party..
but I belong to his b'day party..
I don't think I'm important to him,
but I'm important to her...*well, at least, she is quite important to me*

uurgh.. so confusing...
I really hope that's not gonna happen for the third time..

and let's see for next week plan..
okay, 21 oct, my little nephew gonna be a month, and there's gonna be a party *again*
then, last night, my dad gave me an another b'day invitation.. well, let's say my cousin's little girl is turning one... and there's a birthday party *again and again*
then, the next week, 28 Oct is my big nephew birthday..
and 1 Nov, it's my mom n my friend 's birthday.. oh my!!!

which one is better??

hey, guys.. I need help here.. :p

if you were at the bookstore,
and you saw books...
Book with which title will get ur attention, and u wanted to read, and buy it??

a. Dear boy,
b. Letters to my boy

cause it'll be the next project of mine.. :p

comment with ur answer, guys..
thanks.. :)

my feeling

Okay, I don't really know about what exactly I wanted to say..
But I just want to write on my blog..

Here's my feeling recently..
I kinda have a crush on someone...
but I'm quite sure that he don't know me..
well, he might recognize me,
but I don't think he want to know me better,
well, Who am I?
I'm just a eleven grader, a girl who isn't famous in school,
and you can say a School freak..
or, a Bookworm..

well, I admit it..
I like reading, I want to be a nicer girl at school,
not the one who try to be famous at school...

I don't know what to do with my feeling actually..
my first choice, wait until it's my time,
but with his personality,
I don't think it'll work if I didn't do any action..

my 2nd choice, GIVE UP..
and I actually really don't want to do that..
but, if it's the only choice, then I'll do it..
if it's for my own sake, or maybe for his sake, I'll do it..

what's the exact thing I must do??

Samantha = a good Listener

Samuel + anthos = Samantha..
Which means A good listener,
a Listener of God,
or God has heard..

A good listener..
Well, I admit, I like to listen to my friend's stories..
I like their story actually,
but sometimes I get bored cause some people always tell the same topic of their stories..
Such as "boys" for girls..

But it's seems that they rarely ask me 4 my story..
I don't know it's only my feeling or it's the truth..

Well, My story might not as interesting as theirs,
but I want to share is it wrong?
When I share some story,
they just listen and done, do nothing..
Never give response or advice..
Well, sometimes they give advice but what I really need actually is response..