i don't know whether it's a good day or a bad day.

the day I meant is the 25th of February..
well, I bet some of you know that it is my birthday,
and I actually had already been waiting for it..
I always wondering, what will my friends give me,
or who will wish me a happy birthday,
and whether it's going to be a good day or a bad day..
I admit, I kinda like a little kid..

the night before, I slept at my mom's bedroom,
I woke up around 5 and activate my cellphone..
2 messages.. wow...
5.15 am some friends started to write “HBD Tata" on their's blackberry messenger status..
then, they started to chat me..

I went to school, my friends gave me cupcakes and a watch..
To be honest, the cupcakes looks cute, but when you see it carefully, it's quite frightening.. especially the chip and dale.. haha.. :p *just saying*
the watch is cool, all white.. but I'm afraid, I'll make it dirty.. :D
I move from class to class bringing that big bag with cupcakes inside.. -.-'''

After school, I did my routine, which is went to an english course and chinese course..
I brought cakes for my teachers. and actually I hope someone will appear that day...
but in fact, I didn't see the person I'd like to see...

and that day ended just like that.. although I was happy to see the presents, but there's still my wish which hasn't been realized..

i just don't want to disappoint anybody

just got the news that
I'm selected to join another physics competition..

well, I actually don't mind,
but...

remembering that I have 2 test on Monday, when the competition will be held,
and the last time *and the first time* I join physics competition,
I just don't want to join it..

I don't want to disappoint anybody,actually..
who do I mean anybody??
first, it's my teacher..
last time, I joined that competition and couldn't solve any question because of so many reasons.. well, honestly, I felt I was so stupid.. x_x
and now, another competition??
whew, can't imagine what it'll be..

second, my parents especially my mom..
she knew I joined that competition that day,
and I came home then said to her, "I couldn't do even one number, while my friends said it was so easy. easier than the exercises"
She said that it's fine. Just make it as an experience..
yeah, I know this is what she's going to say...
but, I can't just make every time as experience..

and the last person, is myself..
i can't face the fact that I failed and I've missed some classes..
I just don't want to face that fact for the second time...

I don't really know what I'm talking about.
I just write down what's in my mind now..
i hope nobody's hurt when reading this... :)

some things can't be missed, some loves can't be released

Some things can't be missed
Some loves can't be released

K

it's not my own word actually..
I copied that from a Taiwanese drama series, 4 gifts 女王不下班

In my opinion, what K said is true..
some things, when you missed them, you can't take those back..
and you must face the fact that you've missed them..

and the same thing with love...
When you're fall in love, why you have to release it??
keep hold it until the love has gone..
it might hurt, but,
if you had released it, and you realize that it's yours actually,
it gonna hurt more...

that's what my opinion.. I'm just sharing...

new year resolution

I feel like it's kinda a little bit late..
but better late than never... ;)
HAPPY NEW YEAR....

i don't know why, but in the last few seconds in 2010, I felt like I don't want to let it go..
well, these are my memories in 2010..
umm.. I know, some are may be not written here..
But all of my memories are gonna be here, in my heart forever...

* Held my 15th birthday party and it's really a great party (25.02.2010)
* More mature, in my opinion.. :)
* Visit Shanghai 2010 Expo.. it's awesome, oops, it's better than awesome... a pity, my dad didn't come with us..
* got higher mark than grade 10..
* more independent at school...
* got closer to my cousins..
* found out a crush.. :p
* made a sina account (Chinese twitter)
* finished some Chinese books.. :)
* found a brother...
* be a sudden celebrity.. lol.. that's really exhausting..

anything else??
don't think so.. :p

n this new year resolution is....

1. save some money.. :)
2. make a decision for university.. quicker is better :p
3. get the first rank.. at least, try my best..
4. finish my English story..
5. Forget some memories which should be forgotten
6. be more friendly
7. more friends..

what else?? haha..
not sure.. :p
guess that's all.. :D

I hope this will be better than last year...

family

a lot of ppl said that FAMILY stands for "Father And Mother I Love You"
then what about brother and sister? They still part of a family, right??

that's not what I'm gonna talk about actually

I'd like to say *well, kinda complaining* about my and my friend's family condition..

Some of my friends' parents didn't allow them to have a relationship now.. I mean, when we're in High School. They think that we're not adult enough, while we think it's kinda late, because a lot of our friends alr had their relationship since... um... Junior High, or even maybe Elementary school..

well, but in my opinion, they have a very nice family.. They usually go somewhere, and it's usually abroad (where I wanted to have my holiday with my family), on holiday...

and they (my friends) aren't really happy with that condition..
They prefer having a relationship to having a holiday with family..
well, human never feel satisfied, right?? and they regret it when they lost it..

If can't have relationship is the only way to have a family vacation, then I prefer not to have a relationship right now....

I always wanna be your little girl

last night,
when I said good night to my mom and dad,
my dad said,
"why don't you grow up?"
and I actually didn't get what my dad said..
then he continued,
"why are you still like a little girl?"
I didn't know what to answer,
so I just smiled..

After I went out from their bedroom,
I told myself,
Because I always wanna be your little girl, dad...

I actually already planned something for my 17th b'day
but, I don't think that I'm gonna tell this to anyone,
except, they're reading my blog.. :)

everyone says 17.. you're now not a little girl/boy anymore..
you've grown up..
yes, we've grown up..
But here, in my heart, I always wanna be your little girl, mom, dad..
will you do this for me???

Aaron said....

well, you might ask, who the hell is Aaron??
He's not my boy *But I wish he was.. lol..*
He's not my brother *and again, I wish he were... :p*
He's the most influenced person in my life...

He got a cute face,
but,
He's been suffering a lot,
I wish I could replace him....

I'm not gonna talk about Aaron this time..
But I'm gonna talk bout what he said..

He said that, Life without friends is like life without the sunshine..
then,
what about life without love??
what I mean love here is love between boyfriend and girlfriend..

I know, friends are more important than a boy/girlfriend.
But, is it wrong wanting a boyfriend/girlfriend??
No, right?? :)