family

a lot of ppl said that FAMILY stands for "Father And Mother I Love You"
then what about brother and sister? They still part of a family, right??

that's not what I'm gonna talk about actually

I'd like to say *well, kinda complaining* about my and my friend's family condition..

Some of my friends' parents didn't allow them to have a relationship now.. I mean, when we're in High School. They think that we're not adult enough, while we think it's kinda late, because a lot of our friends alr had their relationship since... um... Junior High, or even maybe Elementary school..

well, but in my opinion, they have a very nice family.. They usually go somewhere, and it's usually abroad (where I wanted to have my holiday with my family), on holiday...

and they (my friends) aren't really happy with that condition..
They prefer having a relationship to having a holiday with family..
well, human never feel satisfied, right?? and they regret it when they lost it..

If can't have relationship is the only way to have a family vacation, then I prefer not to have a relationship right now....

I always wanna be your little girl

last night,
when I said good night to my mom and dad,
my dad said,
"why don't you grow up?"
and I actually didn't get what my dad said..
then he continued,
"why are you still like a little girl?"
I didn't know what to answer,
so I just smiled..

After I went out from their bedroom,
I told myself,
Because I always wanna be your little girl, dad...

I actually already planned something for my 17th b'day
but, I don't think that I'm gonna tell this to anyone,
except, they're reading my blog.. :)

everyone says 17.. you're now not a little girl/boy anymore..
you've grown up..
yes, we've grown up..
But here, in my heart, I always wanna be your little girl, mom, dad..
will you do this for me???

Aaron said....

well, you might ask, who the hell is Aaron??
He's not my boy *But I wish he was.. lol..*
He's not my brother *and again, I wish he were... :p*
He's the most influenced person in my life...

He got a cute face,
but,
He's been suffering a lot,
I wish I could replace him....

I'm not gonna talk about Aaron this time..
But I'm gonna talk bout what he said..

He said that, Life without friends is like life without the sunshine..
then,
what about life without love??
what I mean love here is love between boyfriend and girlfriend..

I know, friends are more important than a boy/girlfriend.
But, is it wrong wanting a boyfriend/girlfriend??
No, right?? :)

"you're smart"....

A lot of my friends said,
"you're smart!!"
"So lucky to be you..."

what's the benefit of being me??
well, I admit, my score at school is good..
but, Have you ever seen me win a competition which don't have relation with subjects??

I'm just good at subjects..
I don't know what talent that I have..

some of them want to be like me,
have a good score at school and lalala...

hey, don't you think that you guys are more talented than me??
the fact is that, I envy you guys..
you maybe not good at school, but you have skills...
And you can use it..
But I think, not me..
I don't know what talent is mine..

I play piano, but just play.. *you know what i mean*
I draw, but just draw, no art..
I sing, but i just like it, I don't think my voice is special.
*sigh*

a lot of people said
"you're smart"
but nobody's ever said
"you're special"

sudden celebrity

why I chose this title? coz I am now..
haha..
you don't believe?? no problem..
I'll tell why I chose this title..

august 21, 2010..
it was the first day i became a sudden celebrity..
well, on Wednesday august 18, if I'm not mistaken,
my brother invited me to his b'day party..
well, Okay. I don't have any plan for saturday, so it's fine

then, Thursday august 19, 2010...
I got another b'day party invitation for Saturday..
WHAT???? Saturday??? the same day??
then I saw the time.. and the same time??
the place, well, ofc, not the same place..
how can I be at the different place on the same time??
NO WAY!!!!
then I asked my mom, 'what should I do?"
my mom said, 'it's up to me..'
wew -.-''

one is my brother now, and one was my brother..
*well, he's still my brother.. but we're not that close anymore*
ofc, I prefer my present brother than the other one..
but, I don't want to disappoint the other brother,
or let's say, I don't want to miss this opportunity...
so my last choice is that, come to both of them..

and I did.. I went to my brother first, then to my present brother..
but at last, I don't think I'm satisfied or I'm happy... :(

and I'm afraid, this thing is happening again..
today, 16 Oct, I had 2 b'day invitations *again*
1st is my classmate's.. she's a girl
2nd, is my.... well, you can say, my ex..
I'd like to come to both of them.. but.. *there's always 'but'...*

I don't think I belong to her b'day party..
but I belong to his b'day party..
I don't think I'm important to him,
but I'm important to her...*well, at least, she is quite important to me*

uurgh.. so confusing...
I really hope that's not gonna happen for the third time..

and let's see for next week plan..
okay, 21 oct, my little nephew gonna be a month, and there's gonna be a party *again*
then, last night, my dad gave me an another b'day invitation.. well, let's say my cousin's little girl is turning one... and there's a birthday party *again and again*
then, the next week, 28 Oct is my big nephew birthday..
and 1 Nov, it's my mom n my friend 's birthday.. oh my!!!

which one is better??

hey, guys.. I need help here.. :p

if you were at the bookstore,
and you saw books...
Book with which title will get ur attention, and u wanted to read, and buy it??

a. Dear boy,
b. Letters to my boy

cause it'll be the next project of mine.. :p

comment with ur answer, guys..
thanks.. :)

my feeling

Okay, I don't really know about what exactly I wanted to say..
But I just want to write on my blog..

Here's my feeling recently..
I kinda have a crush on someone...
but I'm quite sure that he don't know me..
well, he might recognize me,
but I don't think he want to know me better,
well, Who am I?
I'm just a eleven grader, a girl who isn't famous in school,
and you can say a School freak..
or, a Bookworm..

well, I admit it..
I like reading, I want to be a nicer girl at school,
not the one who try to be famous at school...

I don't know what to do with my feeling actually..
my first choice, wait until it's my time,
but with his personality,
I don't think it'll work if I didn't do any action..

my 2nd choice, GIVE UP..
and I actually really don't want to do that..
but, if it's the only choice, then I'll do it..
if it's for my own sake, or maybe for his sake, I'll do it..

what's the exact thing I must do??

Samantha = a good Listener

Samuel + anthos = Samantha..
Which means A good listener,
a Listener of God,
or God has heard..

A good listener..
Well, I admit, I like to listen to my friend's stories..
I like their story actually,
but sometimes I get bored cause some people always tell the same topic of their stories..
Such as "boys" for girls..

But it's seems that they rarely ask me 4 my story..
I don't know it's only my feeling or it's the truth..

Well, My story might not as interesting as theirs,
but I want to share is it wrong?
When I share some story,
they just listen and done, do nothing..
Never give response or advice..
Well, sometimes they give advice but what I really need actually is response..

Tug of war

yesterday, my school arranged 2 competition for celebrating the independence day...
yes, today is the independence day..

I join the Tug of war competition..
actually, I didn't plan to join it coz seems that I'm not chosen.. :p
but then, no one is willing to play, so I just join to have some fun.. :)
in fact, I really had a lot of fun..

1. coz I won... well, my team won...
2. I saw him playing for 8 times.. well, actually he's quite pitiful.. he needed to play 8 times to win,, but I just played 6 times..
   

well, actually, I didn't plan to watch his match, cause I've just done doing mine, and I wanted some cool air.. so I went inside my class.. then, I heard the host said, "This is grade 12 Social 1 VS...."
weew.. It's his class.. Maybe I should watch.. and I saw him standing next to the... well, let's say "rope".. haha, don't know what its name actually.. :D

then his class won the first competition..
after that, I played again for the semifinal, and so did he..
I won, and so did he.. but I just play 2 times, for semifinal, and he needed to play 3 times..
and so was the final.. I played 2 times, but he played 3 times.. :p

well,, you've done well, boy!! you look cute, in fact..


the last one I was really happy is because Rheyhan was there too...
finally, he went to my school... Lol..

Happy birthday, dear Boy....

hey, boy..
I know it's late here (but not there)

I want to wish u a happy birthday..

I hope you have a blast one...

I wish you know I exist.. :p

All the best for you, boy...

Once again,,I'm not ready...

H**l, why the time can't stop?
sometimes we need it to move quicker,
but sometimes we need it to move slower or even stop..
Well, that's Human.. Never feel satisfied...

Why I'm not ready?
okay, here are some reasons...

1. I'm not in the class with my best girl..

2. I've spent the whole holiday (+the 2nd semester final exam) with my sis..
And now, she just left like that.. I'm alone again..
*that's why I wish I had a lil bro or sis*

3. I get more pressure this year..
Because of score, and bla bla bla..

4. I just want to be with her.. is that wrong??

well, i guess that's all..

satisfaction

i know, people never feel satisfied..
but sometimes, we do need to be satisfied for a while..

Paragon.. the newest mall in town..
it's quite far from home,
and I went there just for watching movie??

Hey, I spent a lot of time planning this..
who will pick me up, with whom, and blablabla

then I got there.. bought the tickets, watched the movie..
my first aim CHECKED..
I called my mom and told her the movie's done,
she said that she was picking clothes at the dry clean,
I thought I still have time to buy coffee, or at least snacks..

well, as i know, Indonesian worker are SLOW.. d*mn SLOW..
that's why we need to queue everywhere..
at the locket, at the bakery, and everywhere...

and that's why, I didn't buy anything at last
cause my mom was outside.. ****

i need refreshing, people..
it's not easy to get there,,
and i don't want to went there just for watching A movie..
at least let me walk around for a while!!!
*sigh*

what I want to say

I'm not sure enough about what i'm going to write actually...
so I'm not sure y'all know what or who i'm saying...

First, I would like to say "thank you" for one of my girl...
thanks for buying me "The Last Song" novel with the cover like I imagine...
*I'll pay ofc.. whenever we met after the holiday..*

Second, I would like to say "thank you" *again* to my new "brother"
thanks for accompanying me this holiday..
I hope we can be in the same class next year

Third, I would like to say "thank you" *ironically* to one of my friend..
you've made me such a fool.. really thank you...

Fourth, I can't even wait for 27 of June.. I'll be out of town.. YAY!!!

Fifth, I would like to say "Good luck" for my girl..
Good Luck on your way you've chosen.. :)

I guess that's all..

Happy holiday, Guys!!!!!

Which One Do You Choose??

"Which one do u choose??"
Science or Art??

when u're at grade 10 in National School or other schools (except International School),
you'll be asked this question..

well, it's quite hard to answered that, for me..

of course, because of some reasons..

1.I can't memorize..
I seldom get 100 in memorizing lessons, like Geo,Sociology,History, etc.

2. How would be my Biology if I choose Science??
I've told you, I'm bad at memorizing.. although actually, you can't memorize when you're learning Biology.. It'll make u easier to forget...

3. I'm not planning to take a class which has relation to science later at college or university
well, I don't have any interest at those kind of classes..

4. Can't I choose Language??
Big NO!!! there's no Language choice in my school.. T,T

Why we can't choose our favorite lesson??
Like at Harry Potter..
take the lesson which with the highest score..
It'll make school more fun and easier..

what a very nice dream.. haha..

Graduation 2010

it's not my graduation..
it's my seniors' graduation..

bisa dibilang keren..
why??
karena kita pake pindah haluan segala..
gara2 hujan tuh...
sdgkan kita, para penari, perlu tahu keadaan panggung..

Abis pindah haluan, acara lsg mulai..
Nda mungkin sekali kalo mau latihan..
maka dari itu, kita hanya berpasrah..

tapi,
Thanks God...
kita berhasil ngelakuin itu semua.. :)
bangga bgt dehh..

Katanya keren, bgs, dll..

Mereka ga tahu nasib kita siih..
Ada yg mau jatuh ke blkg,
ada yg mau kesrimpet baju,
ada yg salah jalan,
wew... -_-
tpi memuaskan kok.. :)


GOOD JOB, GUYS.....

hey, girl.. still remember all these??

remember all these, girl??


Totally Spies... Undercover....



Jonas Brothers...


your favorite show, Hannah Montana??



xiao xiao da ren wu?? Fahrenheit??



Lollipop?? Na li Pa?? :)


I hope you still remember those..

I miss you.. :)

miss them

well,
mm...
some people say that,
people will change after they have their L-O-V-E relationship..

and now,
I know it..
2 friends of mine, or maybe more
have been the examples...

and now,
I kind of miss them..

Disney's Friend For Change

Disney's Friends For Change.....
One of my dream....
It's gonna be my pleasure to be one of them..

Save the environment
Save the oceans
Save the earth
Make a better world...

Don't say,
"You're just A KID"
"You're just 1 PERSON"
"You're just GONNA HAVE TO WAIT"

Because we can change the world..
with you, my FRIENDS,
we have the chance to change the world...

I'm just 1 person,
but million of friends like you
can help me to make a better world... :)

I wonder.....

Sometimes I wonder,
What if I weren't born here?
What if I were a Singaporean or Chinese or, even better, American???

well, actually...
I'm bored to live here..

I can't be an independent person..
I need someone to be with me to go anywhere..
No SAFE public transportation,
well, taxi is quite safe.. but the cost......... no thanks.. :p
Bus... mmmm.. don't know how and where to take buses here, except, BRT...
but still, I don't know the route...
and the important one, I'm just a 15-year-old GIRL
walk alone in public means look for death...

huff..
maybe I watched too much movie,
so, I'm wanting their life..
but it's not so possible to live their life here...
is it??

what's the different???

I just received a text from my friend..
he said that he don't need my bio paper,,
he will borrow my other friend..

okay.. at first, i'm quite happy.
why??
cause I don't need to bring that paper to my friend's house..
but I'm quite disappointed..
still, why??
cause What's the different???
it's the same bio paper..
just not the same handwriting,
and not the same owner,
and not the exactly same answer
but the same point..

I might be not the number one in class,
but am I that bad??
until u won't borrow mine??

it's ok if u want to borrow hers,
but do u need to tell me??
do u need to ask me whether mine is done yet???

SO UNIMPORTANT...
just wasted my money!!!!!
don't u get it??
why can't u leave ur bad habit??
wasted the money of friends' cellphone??
first his, and now mine???

jus FYI,
we're tired with you...

I'm only me when I'm with you

This is one of my favorite song..
sang by Taylor Swift...

Friday night beneath the stars, in a field behind your yard,

you and I are paintin' pictures in the sky

And sometimes we don't say a thing; just listen to the crickets sing

Everything I need is right here by my side

And I know everything about you I don't wanna live without you.

I'm only up when you're not down

Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground

It's like no matter what I do

Well you drive me crazy half the time; the other half

I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true

And I'm only me when I'm with you.

Just a small town boy and girl livin' in a crazy world

Tryin' to figure out what is and isn't true

And I don't try to hide my tears

The secrets or my deepest fears

Through it all nobody gets me like you do

And you know everything about me

You say you can't live without me.

When I'm with anybody else it's so hard to be myself. Only you can tell.

That I'm only up when you're not down.

Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground

It's like no matter what I do

Well you drive me crazy half the time; the other half

I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true

And I'm only me Who I wanna be

Well, I'm only me when I'm with you…

I hope i can sing this for someone.. :)

Make A Wave

okay.. I might be crazy bout this song..
but I can't deny.. It's true..
I really love this song..
And I think, this song has a very deep meaning...

Here's the Lyrics.

they say the beat of a butterflies wings can set off a storm in the world away
what if the ride in the smallest things can power the strongest hurricane
what if it all begins inside we hold the key to turn the tide

just a pebble in the water can set the sea in motion
a simple act of kindness can stir the widest ocean
if we show a little love heaven knows what we could change
so throw a pebble in the water and make a wave make a wave

the single joy's to take and stand you touch your hand with someone in need
(help somebody)
don't fool yourself and say you can't you never know what can grow
from just one seed
so come with me and seize the day this world may never be the same

make a wave (show a little love make a wave seize the day)
make me a wave (make a wave yeahh)
make a wave heaven knows what we could change
so let's show a little love you never know what we can change
throw a pebble in the water make a wave


Yeah.. That's it..
At first, I don't know a thing what's that song mean..
but then, After I browse the lyrics,
I think I got it..

In my opinion, they are talking about
small action can be a great change.
Just like,
the beat of butterflies wings and storm,
a pebble in the ocean....

Well, I really love it...

Throw a pebble in the water, make a wave...

Make a Wave

Hey Guys..
let's say, if u love earth and nature,
you must love this song and watch the movie

OCEANS

on earth day 22 April 2010

hope you love it... :)

it's weird

okay..
I must present a presentation in front of class today..
but something weird..
I Can't find the slides that I had made it the day before..
I thought, maybe I saved it in my laptop, not in my USB..
I can make a new one anyway...

and finally,
I make a new slides...

But...
when I checked at home,
it's not in my laptop..
It's in my USB..
then, how come I can't find it in the afternoon??
so weird...
huff....

Best birthday ever...

Yesterday, 25.02.2010
It's my 15th birthday...

It's quite a special birthday...
I didn't get any present in the morning,
and at school,
but when we're at my party,
WOW... big presents came..
wkwkwkwk...
it's a pity I can't invite all of them...

First big present,
Marie kitty doll.... luv it...

Second present,
1. Mickey earphone
2. Mickey mug
3. Chip key chain
4. A crystal ball... *it's what I want*
5. winter bag
6. ribbon hair accessories..

and I also got a kitty bag and 6 T-Shirts from my uncle
and a photo frame with Nick J and Jackson Rathbone's photo inside from my bestie....

Luv u all..
It's a very special birthday ever...

thank you, guys...
can't mention their name one by one... :)

What a great Lunar New Year

Last Sunday was the Lunar New Year..
So happy..
I met my cousins..
I've never met them since the last Lunar New Year and last June...

Now, we already share anything..
*well, thanks to BlackBerry...*

She's so beautiful.. Even my friends want to know her..
*and I'm definitely jealous.. it's normal, isn't it??*

The other one, She's so tall and cute...
I really admire her..

The reunion was really fun..
Met all of the family member,,
singing, goin' crazy..
watch the slide of old photos...
so happy....
it's a pity I came late...
*can't blame anyone actually*


and now,,
it's 4 more days till..
FIFTEEN.. ;)
*gonna sing that song again and again...*

one more days till Valentine and Lunar New Year...

Tomorrow is 14 of February...
this time, is quite different from before...

first one is
Lunar New Year *or Chinese New Year, whatever*
And I'm really, really happy..
coz I'll meet my cousin..
*waaa..... I miss them....*

Second,
Valentine day..
well, nothing special actually
coz i don't hv bf yet..
but I'm still wanting it.. haha..

What I'm happy for is
The Lunar New Year!!
Can't wait for it...

Happy Lunar New Year and Valentine Day.....

parents' room feels like heaven...

tomorrow night will be 1 week I slept in my parents' room..
well, admit it,
parents' room feels like heaven..

whenever I couldn't sleep,
I went there and sleep...

There, no need to be afraid...
warmth is there..
so lucky i could sleep there for 1 week..
*n my dad isn't angry... :p*

well, actually i want to sleep in my own room..
but i'm afraid
if I sleep in my own room,
then I could not sleep in their room anymore..
what should I do??? TT

lately

okay...
he's here..
but as usual, he won't talk to me 1st..
so i had to talk first..
girl ask boy first????
unbelievable... I'm not gonna do that,...
but at last, I did it.. :(
*I'm so disappointed with me,hope I could be tougher*

this morning, mom said,
"Next month we'll have fam reunion...
it'll be held in auntie's house..
she said that u might play the piano,
but don't play classic song.."
Mom may not ask me to play..
but it seems that she said that to ask me to play..

I'm fine to play the piano..
but I'm not that expert...
what song should I play??

S.O.S by JB??
A little bit longer by Nick J??
Zhi dui ni you gan jue by FLH n Hebe??
Suan tian by FLH n SHE???

dunno.... :(

feel guilty

Ok. I really feel guilty..
It's been 2 days from Sunday..
And I dunno how to fix it...
*hope I could fix it*

He's the one who ever fell in love with her..
And now, I'd ruined everything...
What a nice girl I am???

Now my world isn't the same anymore..
He feels bad, n so do I..
I don't know what her exact feeling,,
but he said that she's happy now..
I don't think so..
cause she's not that kind of girl..
She still have feeling for shouting out loud..
Maybe she's not like me, but in some ways, she's better than me...
Much more better than me.....
Hope he know that...

I really don't know what I must to do...
He's better with her..
but not her...
*sigh*

my memories...

Last day of semester 1 holiday..

And I really bored..

Have nothing to do..

Then got an idea for editing my photo...

Well, thanks God I got photoscape in my grandma’s laptop..

So, I edited some of my pictures with my friends..

It’s one of my memories..

When I edit it, I suddenly feel miss them, especially her..

*can u guess???*

I really can’t cherish the time..

When I was there, I didn’t look for her..

And now, I regret it..

Really-really regret..

When will I be there again??

It’s gonna be take a long waiting...

Not only bored now.. I start to feel scared..

It’s only 2 days more till her leaving..

Well, it’s the 2nd time,

But I still scared..

*I just like a loser*

Well, I have to be braver...

2010 new year resolution....

ok.. everyone wrote this kind of blog, so..
Juz following.. haha..
*hope you don't mind, guys...*

1. get a higher mark
I feel like my mark isn't the best I could be...

2. be a nicer girl..
try to be more patient, care, ...

3. start to make a portfolio..
well, in case I'll take my sister's college..

4. be more friendly to my cousin..
I kind of not really know them.. so let's start to know each other.. *thx 2 BlackBerry*

5. make more friends..
try to find TRUE FANS of my idol.. and find people who had the same fav...

6. have a holiday with my family (again)
and I hope it's in China or HK..

I guess that's all...

unexpected meeting

well,, first of all, I wanna say Happy new Year...
Wish this year will be better and will give the best for me...

today, 2nd Jan 2010, me and my fam went to dine out..
we had our dinner at a steamboat restaurant..
*we've been there a lot of times.. but we still love it..*
We really enjoy the food, until...
I saw a boy..
and I recognize him..
This is the second time I unexpectedly met him..
First one, was when I still had something with him..

now, everybody told me that he's not the same him anymore..
and I never talked to him anymore..

When I saw him,
all of my memories came to my brain..
huff.. what a very unexpected meeting...